Trance

Trance is a naturally occurring state. It is argued that before we enter what we know as "Trance", we already are walking around in trance.

Think about the ways we self soothe and numb ourselves- we watch TV, we binge eat. We do these things mindlessly because why? It's almost like we put ourselves in trance to cope.

What are we coping with?

From the time we're young and impressionable we're given hypnotic suggestions and brainwashed to believe who we "are". When we grow we are taught by society to act certain ways. Boys don't cry. Girls need to be nice. Then we have a cultural layer. For me, I was conditioned to be submissive because that's what nice Chinese girls are (there's a cultural concept of "guai" which means well-behaved, to do as you're told. It is a cherished trait). Then we have the messages we internalize from our friends, parents (what Freud would call the Ego). You're a messy person, you never finish your work, you're lazy- or on the flip side we get many positive messages as well that may or may not reflect who we truly are.

The act of going into trance electively for the purposes of hypnosis is self-selected. It is an instance of the authentic self choosing to remove those layers of conditioned responses and restrictions. It is the first step to liberation, because in that "trance" state, we can access the subconscious mind in its purity to literally, delete our programming.

The ways you act automatically are conditioned responses. They're not really you.

Don't you want to know who you really are?

I bet you'd like you if you got to know you. I know I already do.

xM

Why Invest in Energetic Maintenance?

Energetic maintenance is not only an investment in yourself, but in those around you.

Our energetic imprints create our reality and set our boundaries. Notice the patterns in your life? Why do you keep attracting the same types of relationships with people, money, housing, friends, etc? Objectively, how come other people have patterns that aren't similar to yours at all? The answer is it's all in the energy they're sending out.

We develop an idea that we need to work harder to change those habits but really, some of it can be changed effortlessly through healing our energy. When we heal our energy, our whole world transforms, and then that impacts everyone in our lives positively.

Before I had my own energy healing, I would've scoffed at the idea of routine energetics. But now, I've put myself on a routine of shamanic healing, acupuncture (so I can address energy centers and meridians at once), detoxing (regular visits to an infrared sauna, colonics, massages, high endurance workouts) and on average two hours of meditation a day. I barely drink and my diet is vegetarian and healthy. It is a lot of time and money I put towards this and it is worth it because when you invest in yourself, you send a message to the world that you matter. And when you invest in your energy, because you're also investing in others and the world at large, you get back your investment tenfold or more. That is the way energy works- the universe will always support you if you're making wise decisions that contribute to the greater good. The stronger your energy, the more good you can do.

Before my life changed, I kept repeating the same patterns and beating myself up about it, spending so much time trying to work it out, seeking help in all the wrong places. Nothing seemed to change. And now, my life is completely different. My old self-defeating patterns vanished. I don't even have to say a word. My energy does the work for me and attracts just what I need when I need it. It self sustains- the more work I put in, the more disciplined I am towards my own healing, the more expansive and abundant my life becomes. 

The truth is counterintuitive. When things seem difficult- do less. Tune in more.

Remember that paradoxically by not taking care of yourself, you are being selfish. You can only take care of others if you take care of yourself. Why do they tell you on the plane to put your mask on first before you secure masks onto others? Think about it.

 

 

 

Gratitude

The single key measure of life satisfaction is GRATITUDE.

Watch how someone reacts when you give them a gift. The happy, fulfilled person will be grateful even if what you give them isn't a lot. 

The entitled person discards the gift or finds some reason albeit subtle, to belittle it. They might even demand more.

Then generalize this attitude to every object, person and circumstance in that person's life to see how they see their own lives. 

Then understand this is exactly how they feel about themselves. The first person is at peace. The second person feels nothing is ever enough.

Neutral Mind

The neutral mind is the 3rd mind, and the mind that we strive for.

The negative mind is the first mind. It is the one that assesses situations based on fear. It develops because it helps us survive. 

The positive mind is the second mind. It is the one that gives us joy, the rose tinted glasses. It develops to help us see the bright side. Without hope, we stop striving.

The neutral mind is where these two minds converge so that we have an accurate perception of pros and cons for making every choice. With the neutrality, we are distanced, objective, and realistic

However, I argue that our idea of realism as a society is skewed towards the negative. Mostly skeptics and pessimists will tell you you're not realistic when you're optimistic. Realism in our current view keeps our expectations down so that we don't get disappointed. Our current anchor of realism is not where it should fall. Where it should fall is in neutrality where we have perspective.

 

Awakening

I remember being a teenager and reading The Power of Now by Ekhart Tolle.

It was back then I began reading self-help books in my spare time, seeking education and help. I knew there was something wrong with how I felt and what I dealt with, but living in that reality and being told it was 100% normal doesn't allow that perspective.

It was like being in Plato's Cave

If you're unfamiliar with the Allegory of the Cave, essentially Plato likens existence to people living their lives in a cave, watching shadows cast on the wall. Because of their limited perspective, they believe this is the world. 

The Power of Now struck me hard and I still remember the passage today even though it's been countless years since I've read it. It was about how Tolle came to be. What I mean is, when he embodied consciousness and surrendered to his Spirit. He described it as a moment of darkness sitting on a park bench and he thought the world had ended. He thought he was dying, his reality was caving in. Then the next morning it was akin to the first day of his entire life. He could finally see.

I truly believe that there's a part of us that already knows everything we are going to experience. As esoteric spiritual teachings tell us, our souls write a plan for every lesson we agree to experience in our life. We not only have this contract with ourselves, but we also have them with others. We enter into a soul contract with other people who serve a mutual purpose on our journey. It explains why, even though you may be encountering 500 people a day, you only resonate with a select few. 

That part of me both knew and had NO idea what I was about to experience. I didn't think that spiritual awakening would be something on my radar, but there must be a reason why I remembered for all those years the first time I encountered a description of it. I would never have imagined this is what I would become, to have my reality shifted entirely in the past 5 months, to have rebuilt myself from inside out. But being out of that cave for once is the most I could ever ask for.

A long time ago I ran into a palm reader. The skeptic, rational side of me dismissed it, but the intuitive part, and my heart, heard it loud and clear. I asked her why my life line was so short.

"Look here," she said, pointing to a line that extended below my life line. "It breaks off but continues here. You're going to live your life one way and then drastically change and live it a new way,"

I did not know that what she was showing me was my awakening.  

Protectors

Since I was young, I was captured by Kill Bill. I tend to love narratives about growing into ones' strength and identity. Lady Vengeance is another one that explores similar themes.

Anyway, the last scene always struck me. Her tears were so complex yet I couldn't quite understand what they meant. Superficially, it could be read that Beatrix is just sad after Bill's demise. They had a complex, loving and intense relationship after all. However, I read it as so much more. The tension invited my curiosity for many years.

There's grief, there's turmoil, yet there's GRATITUDE. It's a storm of emotions releasing at once. Do you see? It's catharsis. This great mystery of expression resonated. And I didn't figure out why until today, at 1:11. It was like an angel dropped the answer into my mind. 

In Tibetan Buddhist tapestries, Buddha is always in the center. Below Buddha are what look like, upon first glance, demons. However, they're actually called "Protectors", people put on Buddha's path so that he can overcome, grow and learn from the experience. They are in fact, antagonists.

The people who are our "enemies" teach us the most about ourselves.

Bill is, was, Beatrix's nemesis. He put her through hell and committed brutal acts of violence towards her. He took away her chance at a normal life. Because she has so much hate in her heart for him, her vengeance is what drives the entire narrative. HOWEVER, it is important to see it from a broader point of view. Bill knew who Beatrix was. He tells her at the end, "you are a born killer,"

When Beatrix ran away from her career as an assassin and found a new life in Texas where she would get married and raise her daughter in normalcy and peace, Her abandonment drove Bill mad, so he hunted her down. Essentially, Beatrix was running away out of fear: fear that her killer nature was incompatible with her social role as a mother.

Through everything after, he tested her limits time and time again, showing her her true strength and resilience. By the end, Beatrix redeems not only her daughter, but a life in which she could be the killer she was too. Through testing her, Bill gave Beatrix a gift: he allowed her to get in touch with her true nature, one that she denied. He allows her to integrate nurturer with killer, though initially they seemed at conflict. She's crying because she recognizes this. 

This dawned on me today as I truly recognized the value of my childhood. I've struggled with many different emotions during my own healing process including anger, resentment, guilt, then neutrality. Today, I finally reached the peak: gratitude. By placing the obstacles in my path, my own parents, especially my mother, gave me purpose. As a born healer, they gave me a reason to heal. It does not by any means justify their abuse as I am still not in contact with them because I do not condone their treatment of me. Instead, it helps me recognize the meaning behind my trauma. It gave me insight, it gave me experience, and it gave me not only the capacity, but the depth to empathize with the people I encounter. They allowed me to get in touch with a part of the human condition I wouldn't have been exposed to otherwise. They let me redeem myself.

Had it not been what I went through, perhaps I'd be very different today, with little ability to access and little desire to do what I love most, now.

And very often, on this spiritual path, I find that my greatest hurdles are also great gifts. They point me towards what still needs to heal so that I can move forward.

xo M

 

 

Aura Photos

The aura photo: a beautiful display of colors that may not mean much to most besides its aesthetic appeal.

 White light: healing and extrasensory abilities, open energy usually signifying spiritual awakening. The white in my heart is 5th dimensional heart chakra energy: it is the mark of a pure and open heart. Red: root chakra, grounded. Indigo: 3rd eye, intuitive. Violet: crown chakra, spiritual. Magenta is a blend of red/indigo/violet which indicates loving interactions with others, or in other words, "someone who loves their life and interacts with others in meaningful ways" as told to me by my aura reader :). The quality of my aura has vastly improved since I began working on it!

White light: healing and extrasensory abilities, open energy usually signifying spiritual awakening. The white in my heart is 5th dimensional heart chakra energy: it is the mark of a pure and open heart. Red: root chakra, grounded. Indigo: 3rd eye, intuitive. Violet: crown chakra, spiritual. Magenta is a blend of red/indigo/violet which indicates loving interactions with others, or in other words, "someone who loves their life and interacts with others in meaningful ways" as told to me by my aura reader :). The quality of my aura has vastly improved since I began working on it!

 Tons of white!

Tons of white!

Because it isn't as tangible as say, clothing, because the etheric is not "visible" to most, doesn't mean that it does not have direct relevance to our lives. We are interacting with our auras and those of others on a moment to moment basis. Every aura we come in contact with informs and/or affects our own. It is, in fact, the most important outfit we will ever wear because it protects us. It says more about us than we can ever proclaim ourselves and most of it registers subconsciously. Ever observe two people in a classroom who chronically illicit different reactions from the teacher even if they say the same thing? The response is created in their energy, usually in relation to how they feel about themselves which creates energetic patterns, or it may be caused by energetic/emotional imprints from the past.

I treat the aura as an important diagnostic. Although I do have clairvoyance, it is helpful to have a visual confirmation of the aura to better assess the multiple layers of health in an individual. The aura tells us what kind of energy is leaving and what kind of energy is coming in. It tells us where we are weak and where we are strong. It not only clues us in to our present, past and future, but it  can map out our progress as we continue to heal ourselves.

Treating them lightly has an importance in the current state of consciousness but that does not mean that you have to too. If you find it a helpful tool as I do, please share with me your photo! And remember to take care of your aura and when traveling (which above 3 hours strips the aura!) make sure to wear/bring the appropriate crystals to protect it.

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